. . .sometimes just feel like someone out there is trying to mess with you. . .

. . .like why give people false hope and then shoot them down after they have some kind of expectation. . .it would have been so much better to have absolutely no expectations at all. If it's not obvious, I am extremely depressed. . .depressed that for the past several weeks I've been messed with. Wished I can say I didn't really care, but I just sorta feel like I've been tricked and manipulated. Why do we try so hard and then end up being disappointed. I almost wish that I'm the type of person who half-ass everything and can be happy no matter what the result is. Life makes no sense sometimes.