Sigh. . .alot of things has happen in my life recently. . .mostly within the last two months. If I were to say, I have completely adjusted to everything, that would be a complete lie. In fact, it is all very very overwhelming. On that note. . .these events have by far not been bad things. . .they have all been extremely wonderful things that I've always wanted. So it makes me wonder from time to time. . .what is the catch?! Yes, I do in fact look up into to the heavens and ask quisically during these moments.

Well, it's not so obvious to the daily bystander. . .but I have in fact forgone something extremely dear to me in return for all these fortunate events. Art. Yes, it makes me sad to admit, but I have not drawn anything worthwhile for a long long time. . .only because I am so busy with life. I apologize to those who continue to watch me, if u guys are still around tho I doubt, and those I still owe art peices to. I cannot be more sincere about my guilt and sorrow towards this. Btw, this journal is NOT a declaration that I'm leaving deviantart. . .in case anyone was wondering after reading that. I just wanted to express my sadness on not being able to draw for awhile. Yes, I have done this for many journal entries. . .but it still holds true. Anyways, just feel like being sad since the sky is so grey where I am today.